I head off to San Jose this Sunday to attend summer school at De Anza College for six weeks. I'm trying to speed up the process of getting my 60 units done to transfer. I've decided to buckle down as a full time student beginning fall semester. I'm taking social psychology and public speaking this summer. I plan to take Spanish, English and whatever life science I can get for the fall. Ron has been tutoring me in math so I don't have to waste my time and money taking math courses that don't count for unit transfers. This is what happens when you don't go to school for so long. You forget basic math skills. Better now than never though!
I have to say, I am very happy that I waited this long to go to school. I've had eight years of working meaningless jobs so I take this very seriously now. I have been researching different career options for the last couple of years now and I believe psychology is the right choice for me. I love the subject and I am eager to help people. I was a troubled human being for a long time so if we just get me educated, I will have both the experience of being depressed and the knowledge to help others get out of it. There's no way I would have made this kind of decision at age 18. I wouldn't have had the confidence or self esteem yet to discover that I can help other people deal with the issues that I was experiencing at that time. I was too young to know that I could be capable of something like this. I have quite a few friends who are in the working world now that aren't satisfied with their jobs and it's too late. They can't go back to college now and redo their bachelors. I am super grateful that I did take my time, suffer big, learn some lessons and now have a better understanding of what school has to offer me. Eight years of settling for whatever means I will not settle for anything in college either just to get out and be done. It has to mean something. I can't waste my time there. Eight years have gone by and however long it takes to get to where I will be happy is worth the time put into it. I can struggle for the rest of my life or I can struggle for a limited amount of time to get somewhere better for the remaining part of my life. School is just a segment in time. It isn't forever. Although it may feel like it... it isn't.
I am going to miss Ron. I'll be gone for six weeks! I am so lucky to have such supportive friends and family who want to help me succeed. I really am. I feel blessed. Life isn't so bad. It's great to have a sunshine view of my life now. I escaped the dark, thunder cloud that remained over my head for far too long. Only good things can come out of such a troubled past. I can be an example to others who fear they can't escape.
