Husband and Wife

The semester ends tomorrow! But with that comes two finals that I can only do my best on. I have been on lockdown these last few weeks preparing for them.

With that said, my summer is going to be amazing! I am not taking summer classes this time because I took summer classes last year. That's enough! After one solid year of school, I need my summer break.

This past week has made me reflect a lot on how much I love Ron. He has been tutoring me in math and helping me with my homework after he gets home from work. I wouldn't be passing this class if he wasn't helping me. I have to say, I am really happy I married this guy. I went through a period where I started to question the value of marriage when I let my Christian faith go. Once you admit to yourself that you are not Christian, you begin to question everything you ever valued, so naturally, marriage was on the list of questionable necessities. That doesn't mean I felt I needed to divorce Ron, but I had realized that if I knew what I know now, I don't think marriage would have been necessary simply because I don't need a piece of paper to be recognized by the government to prove anything.

However, as I have given marriage much thought over the last few months, I realize that it is important to me after all, piece of paper, wedding rings and all. Why? It is something that not just a boyfriend does. It is extremely endearing that your boyfriend wants to prove to you that he wants to commit to you through your bad moments as well as your good, but also wants that same thing back from you. That right there, does in fact, take your relationship to a different level. If I was just dating Ron until now, I probably would have left at some point because I was bored, wanted to live in another state, or just flat out wanted something different for myself....myself... and how easy it is to break up with a boyfriend. In a marriage? Not so easy, and you honestly cannot think about just yourself. You did make commitments to that person and you promised to love them through all bad and good, better and worse. What kind of person would I be if I decided to leave someone just because I was bored?

And ya know what... every emotion we experience is temporary. Every phase in life is temporary. Boredom and desires come and go, but the important people in your life don't have to. No matter what, every relationship you get into will have its own issues because none of us are perfect. So why not commit to someone you are compatible with, who understands you, and chooses to love you with all of your flaws? For me, having found that person, I am glad I did marry him and I do not regret that decision.

Recently, I had a conversation with Ron about this and he said he knows I am not the girl who really cares about having a ring, but because I was that type of girl, that made him want to give me the best ring he could because he felt I deserved one. That makes my heart smile that this man just wanted the very best for me. It says something about a guy who wants everyone to know she's taken for good. When I look down at my ring now, I see a decision made in love, and his presence is there when he's not around. I also see it as a message to other men for when he is not around which is, "back off." Looking at it that way makes the ring pretty darn powerful!

I like the fact that when he's out and about, he has a wedding ring on his hand that lets everyone know he found someone special who he chooses to love for the rest of his life. Marriage is more than just the piece of paper. It's about the message it sends to others, it shows pride in choosing someone to be with forever because they are special to you. It shows confidence by your ability to commit to someone with life's unknown circumstances that will surely weave its way into your path. Marriage reminds you that love is a choice, and you choose to love that person. This October will be four years of marriage with Ron, and I feel that we are growing together. Marriage is a beautiful thing if you choose to see it that way. It's all in the perspective of the human. :-)